A New Rebel

little princess

2012-02-01T06:00:00.000-08:00

Chubby cheeks, rosy and warm. Perfect lipstick lips, with a little tongue peeking out. Dainty button nose, petite and smooth. Fair eyelashes, long and dewy. Curious, intelligent eyes, deep blue like the ocean. Reddish blonde hair, thick and fuzzy. Precious voice, whimpering and grunting and crying. You reach down, gently picking her up. It's almost like you're carrying nothing, she's so light. Eager for comfort, she snuggles into you, resting her head against the hollow at the base of your neck. You cradle her in your arms, hugging her tightly. She whimpers as she leans against you, and shares your warmth. Rubbing her back, you hum absently to soothe her. Like the angel she is, she quickly slips back into unconsciousness. You smile as you press your lips to her soft head, thanking God for this wonderful miracle, this little princess.

i'm a fashionista (kind of)

2012-01-30T06:00:00.000-08:00

shirt & vest // unknown ;; shorts // forever xxi ;; tights, boots, & belt // target

photograph friday

2012-01-27T10:51:00.000-08:00

be still, my heart

2012-01-17T18:41:00.000-08:00

Kya was fifteen days old when I took these pictures. She's three weeks old today. I can't believe how quickly the time has flown. She's pretty much the cutest thing in the world.

snapshots of recent life

2012-01-07T13:46:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year, everyone. Have a wonderful weekend. How have you all been recently?

welcome into the world, kya jade

2012-01-01T10:40:00.000-08:00

On December 27 , 2011, my life changed forever.

This little angel was brought into our midst.

I still can't believe she's here, that this is happening.

It was the best day of my life, by far. She is the sweetest, tiniest thing I've ever seen.

I am so thankful that she is alive, healthy, and normal. We had prayed so much for this life.

How can one brand new soul impact the lives of so many?

I love my little Kya, and I want to protect her always. She's the sister I've prayed about for years. She's finally here. I love her so much.

Welcome to your new family, Kya. You don't know how much you are loved.

birthday celebration

2011-12-23T11:22:00.000-08:00

We celebrated my little brother's birthday on Monday by going to Olive Garden. That is one of my favorite restaurants. Ever. So you can imagine my excitement when I learned we were going there. ;)

^ One of my favorite pictures of them. It shows their true, strong bond of brotherhood. I love them so much, and I am so very grateful for them.

I can't believe how fast he's growing up. Nine, already? Last night, he fell asleep, so I carried him upstairs to bed. He didn't complain; he reached up, wrapped his arms around my neck, and leaned against me. I experienced a pang as I carried him. I wondered how many more times I'll be able to do that. He's growing up, whether I like it or not. Soon he'll be too big to carry, too big to cuddle, too big to kiss. And when that day comes, I'll try to accept it. But until it does, I'm going to hug him and stroke his soft cheeks as much as I can, because one day this will all be gone. I listened to the song called "Never Grow Up" by Taylor Swift, and it was like a total match to my life right now. I was thinking about myself, my brothers, my sister on the way, and I cried. I don't want it to end.

You guys are going to freak out... wait for it...

MY SISTER IS DUE IN FOUR DAYS.

*screaming and running around like a crazy person*

I honestly can't believe it's finally almost here. I've waited for so long; it doesn't seem like it will come. But it will. On December 27th, 5:30 a.m., we're going to get in the car and leave for the hospital. My mom will have a c-section, and soon after that, I'll be able to hold my sister.

I'll be able to hold my sister.

I can't believe it, I really can't. It's too good to be true -- a fantasy that seems impossible. But it is. And I can't wait until I can kiss her baby lips, stroke her downy hair, cradle her in my arms. I want to be the best big sister she could ever have.

I'm going to write a Christmas post soon, possibly linking up with Hannah at Aspire.

How have you guys been recently? I'm sorry for the absence from my blog; life's been crazy! What are your Christmas plans? :)

authentic people blog party

2011-11-15T14:46:00.001-08:00

1} What's the nerdiest/geekiest/weirdest thing about you?

I'm obsessed with Harry Potter. No. Really. OBSESSED. In my opinion, one of the best series ever written and directed. How do you know that I'm a true, hard-core HP fan?

I know that one of Harry's favorite things to eat is treacle tart, Dumbledore's favorite jam is raspberry, and Hermione loves the smells of parchment and freshly-mown grass (two scents I also happen to enjoy).
I carved myself a wand out of wood, painted it, and can do quite a few spells with it (including, but not limited to: Petrificus Totalus, Alohomora, and Expecto Patronum). It's legit. UNASHAMED.
I have every single word to this song memorized, and I sing it often.
I AM NOT A MUGGLE.

2} If you could live in a fictional universe from any book, movie, or television show, what would it be?

I can't decide. These are the worlds/places between which I am torn:

Middle Earth (Because I just so happen to love LoTR as well, and I can totally picture myself riding a handsome steed, wearing a dress, with a bow and arrows slung across my back. Oh, yeah. WOMAN POWER.)
Neverland (Mermaids, Indians, the Lost Boys, and fairies? Come on. You can't get much better than that. Plus I was secretly in love with Peter Pan when I was little. I wrote in a coloring book that I wanted to marry him. Which doesn't actually make sense, since he'll never grow up, and I was only six, but STILL. It could happen someday.)
Hogwarts (You knew it was coming...)

3} Little or big, practical or frivolous, what is one of your favorite items in your house?

My computer. Honestly, I don't know how I'd survive without it. If I didn't have it, I'd have to write my book the old-fashioned way. I think my hand would fall off. Plus I currently do online schooling at Connections Academy, so I wouldn't be able to do that. AND you wouldn't be reading this little blog! How sad would that be?

4} Do you like animated movies? If so, what is your favorite?

Uhm, YES. Animated movies are my life. And they're going to come back even more when baby sister enters the world. Here are some of my faves (because you can't really expect me to choose one)...

DISNEY/PIXAR (I realize that's not a movie, but I am in love with every movie this company has ever made. Wall-E, Up, Finding Nemo, The Incredibles, Ratatouille... Do I need to continue?)
Kung Fu Panda (Legend.)
Classic Disney films (Peter Pan, The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Best, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty... They all make me sigh with happiness, reminiscing of my childhood.)
Veggie Tales (Don't judge.)
So many more that I probably can't remember right now.

5} What is your favorite household chore?

Hmm. That's a toughie. I don't really like household chores (and I'd wager that most of you don't either). I guess my least disliked chore would be folding laundry. At least you can watch a movie while you do it.

6} What's your favorite thing to get at Starbucks (or your favorite coffee shop)?

Oh, Starbucks, how I love you. My favorite drinks are: Pumpkin Spice, Peppermint Mocha, Java Chip, and Salted Hot Chocolate. Indulgence, I tell you.

7} What is your favorite pizza topping?

Ham & pineapples. It just tastes so fresh and mouth-watering. :)

8} Waffles or pancakes?

Hmmm. Waffles win, but only by a small margin. My love for all things breakfast displays itself.

9} Do you like to play games? If so, what is your favorite?

Games? Hmm. I'm kind of obsessed with Nancy Drew PC games. And Cranium. And Catch Phrase. And Pictionary. Pretty much just spending time with family and friends... It doesn't really matter what game we play. It's always fun when we're together. :)

^Cheesy. Who cares.

10} Have you ever let anyone win a game?

Usually I'm really competitive, but I've let my little brother win before. Seeing that happiness, that excitement, in his little face, gives me way more pleasure than winning the game. ♥

11} Have you ever dyed your hair?

Nope! It's au naturale. I cringe away from dying my hair; I don't know why. I guess I'd just rather have the hair color God gave me -- a bit of a strawberry blonde. :) Plus it would damage my fragile hairs. BUT I might dye it someday, if I decide it's worth it (or if I get random gray hair). If I ever dyed it, I'd probably go darker, and add a bit more red. Like this, only a few shades darker:

Source: reddishness.tumblr.com via Kailyn on Pinterest

12} Do you make your bed every morning?

Um... no. *guilty face* I'm actually sitting on it right now, and it looks like this:

That's a computer, colored pencils, chemistry homework, Harry Potter, a calculator, clothes, and pillows. *awkwardcough*

13} Picasso or Norman Rockwell?

Hmm, I'd say Norman Rockwell. I know Picasso is a legendary artist, but personally, I think many of his paintings are just... odd. Beauty's in the eye of the beholder, I suppose. :) I like the scenes Rockwell paints... the expressions, the funny situations, the simple optimism of life.

Source: Uploaded by user via Kailyn on Pinterest

14} Do you like carpet, tile, or hardwood floors?

I love hardwood floors, but they're not always practical. I'm starting to realize that. The entire downstairs of our house is hardwood, and it's definitely not as comfortable. (I guess that's what rugs are for, but still. I miss carpet. Plus it's less practical for Baby K, when she comes and starts crawling around.) So I'd probably choose carpet in the bedrooms and living room, hardwood in the hallways, dining room, and kitchen, and tile in the bathrooms. But it depends. It has to be nice carpet... otherwise the effect is completely ruined.

15} If you could put one thing in a safe under your bed, what would it be?

My family. Hahaha, no really. Ummm. Maybe my computer? It has most of my stories and artwork on it... It's really important to me. Or maybe my camera. I love it too much.

16} What's your favorite condiment?

KETCHUP. Ooooh, yum. I love ketchup. No mustard, onions, or relish for me. Just ketchup. On eggs, on hot dogs, on potatoes. It's perfect.

17} Have you ever thrown up on someone (excluding when you were a child)?

Meh. I don't know if I've ever thrown up on someone. I know I've thrown up all over my parents' bed, and my mom cleaned it up. Moms are great at stuff like that. :)

18} What was the last thing that made you laugh?

My brothers. They're constantly making me laugh -- even if they do get on my nerves often.

19} Think fast...what's the first song that pops into your head?

Dream On, by Steve Tyler. I have NO earthly idea why. I don't even listen to him. Although I suspect the reason that it popped into my head first was the because of the title. I happen to be a dreamer.

But if you are curious what kind of music I love, here are a few of my fave artists/genres:

OWL CITY (♥)
Taylor Swift
He is We
Paramore
Coldplay
Chris Rice
Natalie Grant
Selena Gomez
Alexandre Desplat (film scores)
Classical piano
Christian music
Justin Bieber (I promise I'm not obsessed. He just has a really nice voice.)
...and more!

^That's me. Hi. Oh, and my hair isn't actually that dark/red. It's just the editing effect. :)

I had a blast doing this -- it was so much fun! Thanks to Abigail for hosting this amazing blog party! Now I'm off to read some of your entries. Cheerio, dearies. ♥

11.11.11

2011-11-12T09:23:00.001-08:00

I love...

Playing basketball in our own driveway. New basketball hoop! :)
Writing. Although it's one of the biggest challenges ever. 13,020 words and counting. If you're doing NaNoWriMo, add me as a buddy!
Taking pictures and making wishes on 11/11/11 ♥

...and so many more things! I just don't have much time these days; NaNoWriMo is really demanding, and I'm a bit behind on my word count. Thank God for the weekends!

New post and exciting updates coming soon. Love you all. How is your weekend so far? :)

brownies & novels

2011-10-30T14:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I made brownies, as you can see. I was pretty proud of myself. Granted, they were the easy kind, not homemade, but still. They were so good. They satisfied my chocolate craving. (Plus they posed for the camera quite nicely, wouldn't you agree?)

Okay, so I have something really exciting to share...

I'm doing NaNoWriMo.

*cue applause and delighted exclamations*

For those of you who have no idea what that is... It's National Novel Writing Month. Basically, it's a program in which you write a novel in ONE MONTH. I am so stoked! I have a pretty good plot idea, and I'm so excited to start writing! Right now, I'm madly rushing about, trying to develop my characters, create an outline, and plan for this crazy month coming up! Can't believe it's in one and a half days!! My word count goal is 50,000 words, which means I have to write about 1,666 words per day. I'm kinda freaked out, but mostly I just can't wait! Wish me luck, because I'll need it. It's going to be a huge challenge, but such a success. :)

Next month is really going to be crazy. What with NaNoWriMo, worship team practice, baby planning, school, sports, and church, I'm probably not going to have much free time. So I'm sorry if I don't post quite as frequently! I might have some guest posters... You never know! ;)

Happy week! ♥

♥ autumn

2011-10-24T11:48:00.000-07:00

Swirling steam gently cascades over the rim of the mug.
The subtle scent of cinnamon
Causes a smile to play across your lips.
Closing your eyes, you tilt your head
And breathe in the pure, clean, air.
Shivering, but happy, you cup your hands
Tightly around the warm ceramic, seeking comfort.
Sunshine peeks over the fence, touches your face.
Wrapped in your sweater, you sigh, watching your breath
Escape in a cloud to join the fragrant steam.
This is autumn, not just because the leaves
Are exchanging their summer glow
For a modest, subtle orange --
But because you feel that gentle, slow shift in seasons
And you know that your friend, sweet Autumn, has come.

- Kailyn, 2011

Sweaters, knit hats, fuzzy socks, boots...

Pumpkin pie, apple pie, hot chocolate, oatmeal...

Cuddle time, blankets, conversation, bonfires...

Crunchy leaves, refreshing breezes, clear skies, rays of gentle sunlight...

I find the beauty of autumn in little things. They bring me such a nostalgic feeling, so much excitement, so many memories. I like this season. I really do.

And personally, I think autumn sounds more romantic than fall. :)

What about you? What are your favorite moments?

lovely day at the park

2011-10-23T20:42:00.000-07:00

My lovely mommy's birthday was on Saturday.

After a delicious breakfast of pancakes with strawberries, eggs, and sausage, we came home to relax. In the afternoon, we decided to take a bike ride to the nearby park.

The day before, Kade wrote her a birthday card. He ran into my room all excited, and whispered, "Is this okay?" He wanted to check with me to see if I liked it. AWW. Basically, it said, "I love you soooo much. I'm going to give you this." Inside rested two dollars in coins. I just think this is the sweetest thing. Even though two dollars is practically nothing to adults, Kade had it in his little heart to shake his piggy bank upside down and get two dollars out for Mom.

I love him.

Thank you, Mom, for all you do for us. I love you more than I can say. Sorry for all the times I don't show you that like I should. You're so strong. I can't wait for baby sister to come, and I'm sure you can't either! :)

Isn't my dad a handsome guy? :D

Love this cute boy, all red in the face from bike riding and throwing the football.

It's always a great day for a bike ride. I love spending time with my family. :)

Happy Monday!

creatively you

2011-10-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

Hello, lovelies! Good morning to you all! Today I'm entering Olivia's Creatively You photo contest, and I'm pretty excited. This girl has an amazing blog; you should really check it out! Hope you have a lovely Thursday, and expect another post very soon!!

How are you guys? Tell me about your week! :)

remembering this

2011-10-19T08:08:00.000-07:00

Lord, help me to be...

innocent, trusting, and sweet

gentle, caring, and strong.

Help me not to forget times like these

when I can wake up and kiss Kade's sweet head

and I'm counting down the weeks until

baby sister comes and changes everything.

I can't wait for that day.

But until then...

Help me to live fully,

and not for myself, but for others.

Help me to see beauty in the small joys

because I have all I will ever need.

Don't let me forget that.

I don't want to forget.

Help me to make that choice every day...

the choice to live for You.

Give me a servant's heart.

Don't let me miss these precious days

that trickle swiftly like grains of sand.

Help me greet each day

with a smile on my face.

Show me how to love.

going to the fair

2011-10-16T17:47:00.000-07:00

Realizing that a picture is worth a thousand words, I don't think I need to say much more. I already have about 32,000 words in this post alone. Winning.

Anyway, it was really fun! Just spending time with my family was a gift in itself. I love people watching, and the fair is the perfect place to do that. Not to mention the comfort food -- chicken, rice, bread, salad, cinnamon rolls... *longing sigh* As long as you ignore the heat, crowded-ness, and smelliness, it's all good. ;)

Oh, you want to know something really exciting?! Wait for it...

I DOWNLOADED LIGHTROOM 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yayayayayayayayay.

Fountains of happiness are flowing out of my exuberant soul.

Granted, it's only the trial version, BUT STILL. I'm thinking of getting the student version once my trial runs out, and it's waaay cheaper than regular. Which is awesome. But I'm learning everything anew... I am such a noob when it comes to this program. So I'm watching lots of training videos. But I'm getting the hang of it, and I AM IN LOVE. I edited all above photos with it, and I'm just beginning! EEP. Happy day.

Thank you all for your comments... I love you all to pieces! <3 Expect more postings coming soon!

Have you gone to the fair this year? What's your favorite part of it?

it's raining babies!

2011-10-15T14:29:00.000-07:00

(Get it? Raining babies... baby showers... yeah. No? Okay then.)

At this current moment in time, I'm feeling rather... hmm... uninspired. languid. frustrated. antsy.

I don't really know what to write. I want to create something so badly right now, but I feel like I'm just lacking the initiative. I'm coming up empty. Agh. I hate this. It's the most frustrating thing, as an artist, when you just feel dry. I have to inspire myself somehow. Hopefully I will. But for now, I feel like making lists. So I shall.

sunshines ::
1. I went to the fair. Pictures coming soon. :)
2. Mom's baby shower was on the 8th, and it was so much fun! (Hence the title... hem, hem.)
3. On Thursday, I auditioned to be a part of the worship team at our new church. It went really well, and I'm going to start practicing and helping lead worship with the band for high school. Slightly excited. :D
4. Baby K is getting REALLY strong. It's amazing just to sit there with my hand on Mommy's stomach and feel her roll around and kick like crazy in there. I'm telling you, she does NOT stop moving. She's a wild one.

bummers ::
1. My Photoshop CS5 trial expired. *teary violin music* So I have to figure out how to move CS4 from my brother's computer to mine. Bleh.
2. I want to keep writing the book I hope to publish, but I'm still trying to figure out the plot. I feel so frustrated about it. It's so extremely hard to come up with a great story line. Everything I come up with, someone else has done before. But I guess that's the secret to great writing -- using elements that already exist and combining them in your own unique way. Wow. It's a huge challenge. *headdesk*
3. I haven't written a post in over two weeks. EW. (I blame my hectic day life. *coughSCHOOLcough*)
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5. Sorry. I just had to get that out. *deep breath*

Okay, now that I've satisfied my random list craving.

You know, what? I think I know one of the reasons why I'm feeling so meh right now. Today has been spent rather selfishly. I haven't been looking for ways to serve people in my family, or going out of my way to be a blessing. I've noticed that when I really take the time to be kind (and not short or irritated) with people, it comes back around, and I just feel better about the day. I really want to work on this. Right now, I want to go and do something for my brothers. Lord, help me have a servant's heart.

Since I currently am running out of things to type that have any real significance, I shall share some pictures of my Mom's baby shower. The ladies were oh-so-sweet -- just darlings. I know that sounds funny coming from me, since most of them were 30+, but they were just so thoughtful to put it all together, and really made it special. :)

(My mom is the adorable, young, thin blondie, by the way. Love you, Mom.)

The cake was TO DIE FOR.

Aren't the decorations simply adorable?

It was a beautiful day. I had so much fun getting to photograph it all. Every day I become more and more excited for this little sister to come.

Expect at least one (probably two) more posts this weekend, because I have a lot to write about, pictures to share, contests to enter, and plans to mark 100 followers. Almost there! Hello and thank you to the new friends. I love you all. Group hug.

Thanks for reading, and have a remarkably delightful little Saturday afternoon. :)

one hundred is a good number.

2011-09-30T22:59:00.000-07:00

So, I almost have a hundred followers. Crazy, much? To some, that might seem like not much, but to me, it's a milestone. I've had this blog for about 3 years, starting in September 2008. Back then, I wrote as if someone was listening (nobody was, but that's okay). I remember when I got my first follower. I felt extremely special and jubilant, practically jumping up and down. Oh, silly me.

I guess I started blogging because I had something to say to the world, and I wanted to put it down in writing. I started it because I wanted to inspire people & share about God's love. As of now, it's morphed into more of a personal blog, an outlet for my photographic and literary creativity.

I love it.

I love the community and the people. I've seriously made some good, sweet friends on here that I never would've known. I love the support. I love the fact that I can just go and say what's on my mind, and that people are there to listen. I love to create memories that I can look back on with a smile.

Even though my official blogiversary was on September 13, this post is just sort of to commemorate how far I've come. I love messing around with graphic design, trying to make it look the best it can be, and being kind of obsessive about little details. (I know, there's practically a new header with every post, but I finally have designed one that I like a lot, so I think I'll keep it for a while.)

Have I ever mentioned how much I love Instagram? Such an awesome, easy, and fun way to share photos on the go. My username is dreamshadows, if any of you lovelies have one, too. :)

If you haven't been to Me-n-Ed's, you're seriously missing out. So good. Go find one. Best pizza ever.

And Yogurtland. Ohmygoodness. Limitless frozen yogurt, countless flavors, and tons of delicious toppings? Ooooh, heaven. I want some, like, now.

I've been thinking. I really want to do something to mark my 100-followers milestone. What should it be? Any ideas? Email me or leave it in the comment section! (I'm thinking a blog hop... I'd like to start a weekly link-up or something. Now, the only thing to do is come up with a great idea! I'm open to anything you've got!)

Love you all! Enjoy your Saturday! xo ♥

autumn whispers & childlike innocence

2011-09-30T07:48:00.000-07:00

When I wake up, I am simply captivated by the glorious morning light, and I simply can't resist the urge to capture the essence of such beauty.

These leafies are turning yellow! I am so excited!

^ Yes, I am an unashamed Harry Potter geek. Reading the series for the second time. Word.

Go get the pumpkin streusel muffins they now have at Costco. Now. They'll fill you with warm fuzzy feelings about fall. Plus they're just delicious.

When your breakfast looks like this, how can you not be happy? (Ignore the paper utensils, please. It's so much easier than doing dishes. Just pretend it's exquisite china.)

I can't stand this cute face. I love his concentrated expression when he practices the drums. Believe me, he's getting really good at it.

(The "stop-taking-pictures-of-me" face.)

Speaking of Kade, he confided the absolute most adorable thing to me the other day.

"I don't really want anything for my birthday, so when I blow out the candles, I'm just going to wish that everything goes well with Momma's baby."

SQUEE. That makes my big-sister heart simply melt. (His birthday is in December, not long before sissy will be born.)

And then he proceeded to tell me that he prays every night before bed. ("Except for one time when I fell asleep too fast and Papa had to carry me to bed.")

I had one of those unbearable he-is-so-precious-I-can't-stand-it moments. Nobody told him to do that, but he just feels the desire to talk to God every night. I wish I could hear his little prayers. I can't imagine how innocent and cute they must be. This is just one reason why I love him to bits and can't stand his little sweet heart.

That boy. ♥

Apple pie. With a scoop of ice cream on a crisp day. YES. My dream come true. Food is one of the best parts about autumn, I swear!

Sometimes I just like watching them in the car.

Still can't believe he's 13! Growing up into a handsome guy, if I may say so. :) ^ Yes, more Harry Potter. It runs in the family.

We went to this park to meet some of our fellow students in Connections Academy, and the light was gorgeous! We ate Subway during our little picnic.

I am so excited about baby K! I got to go see a 4-D ultrasound of her for the first time the other day, and it was absolutely incredible. She is adorable, and seeing her little body kicking and moving around in there, even making facial expressions, is something I can't begin to describe.

This tiny little life -- this precious baby -- this new personality... It's too much to comprehend. By the end of this year, there will be six of us in this family. It's been just us five for almost nine years, and now this baby girl is going to change it all. I am so excited, just so very excited. I can't wait to hold her close, stroke her soft skin, kiss her little face, calm her down, care for her, be the big sister she needs.

Oh, December, come quickly, if you can.

i laugh at myself.

2011-09-21T15:08:00.000-07:00

crop top & striped tank :: target // shorts :: forever xxi // shades :: walmart // necklace :: umm...

So... I have decided something. Shopping for clothes is significantly less fun when you're paying with your own money.

This is what it's like when mom's paying.

Me: "Ooh, this is cute. Oh, I like this. Hmm, I want that." *piling stuff into cart*
Mom: "Are you even paying attention to how much this stuff costs?!"
Thus ensues the dreary and heart-wrenching process of elimination with adorable might-have-been friends.

It's a tough life.

And this is what it's like when I'm paying.

Me: "Oh my goodness, I love that! Let's see, how much is it...? Nevermind. Ooh, what about this? WHAT! IT'S FORTY-FIVE DOLLARS. ARE YOU KIDDING ME HERE. WE'RE IN A RECESSION. PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO PAY FORTY-FIVE DOLLARS FOR A LEATHER JACKET. Grrrrr."
Later... "Okay, I have four shirts here. That's all. And it's... let me add it up..." *gasp/choke*

Yeah.

Bleh.

But I suppose that's part of life & growing up. Dislike.

Well, on the bright side, at least it's making me think about spending carefully and looking for great deals! I'm really wanting to check out a nearby thrift store... I have seriously been inspired by all the amazing things people find at those places. Let's hope I get lucky!

Anyway, as you can see, whenever I buy new clothes, I have the urge to run outside, set up the tripod & camera, and get my self-timing skills on. Because, no matter how much I beg them, my brothers won't take pictures of me. Sigh. So, it's an okay-let-me-try-this-I-hope-the-focus-is-good moment. And that feeling of success when your pictures turn out sharp. WIN.

And I realize this isn't much of an outfit -- shorts, a tank, and a top -- because it didn't take much forethought or clever fashionista design skills. But hey. It's still 100 degrees over here. We haven't gotten into the cute-scarf-and-jacket weather yet. I'm lovin' this last sweet breath of summer, but every day increases my anticipation and excitement for all the cute stuff I'll be able to wear this fall. I feel like you have more fashion options in the fall (depending on where you live, of course)... you could wear a jacket, blazer, shorts, scarf, blouse, jeans, boots, flats, or heels... Because it's not too hot, not too cold. Can't wait for that fresh, crisp breeze and those crunchy leaves.

Of course, you could always wear sweats and and a sweatshirt, as I will opt for most days.

But still... it's nice to have the freedom to dress up a bit more. :)

*change of topic here*

I had to get three shots yesterday. It was not fun.

And I had an embarrassing memory-lapse yesterday as well. We went to Target to get a few things, and I smartly set down the bag of stuff we'd purchased somewhere. In so doing, we walked out of Target... without our purchases. Complete waste. Needless to say, I felt awful this morning when we realized what had happened. My mom called Target on the slim chance that someone had turned it in, and lo, and behold...

IT WAS THERE.

So we got it back. And I am one happy/grateful camper. Oh, God is just awesome. Thank You.

So, on Sunday, when I was in the backyard taking those outfit shots, I found these two little birds. They were quite peculiar. (I want to use the word "peculiar" in an everyday sentence, just to see how people respond.)

Anyway, they were just walking around, watching me as I posed for the camera, apparently unperturbed by the snapping and clicking sounds it made. So I curiously inched closer to them. They just looked at me. I got closer, taking pictures of them the whole time. They waited patiently while I adjusted my camera's settings, even posing for me at the right moments.

I have no idea why these lovelies didn't fly away. I was literally a foot and a half away from them. Don't judge me... I talked to them. Who are you to say they couldn't understand me? At least they might have been calmed by the soothing sound of my voice.

...Or maybe just creeped out. You never can tell with birds.

Diva. Possibly slightly annoyed I was taking so many pictures.

Love this one. ^ I slowly came to the conclusion that they didn't know how to fly very well, and that's why they weren't escaping for their lives. But they looked quite old enough to fly. I don't know. Maybe they just didn't mind humans.

One of them flapped awkwardly up to a fence post, looking rather proud of itself, while at the same time nervous, while the other one looked on encouragingly.

Then they both mustered up the courage to fly to the top of the fence, where they sat observing me. I decided I might as well get closer, if they didn't mind. So I did. But apparently they did mind.

They perched atop the fence, one of them long enough for a last shot, before fluttering away.

Maybe they did know how to fly already.

I don't really know anything about birds, as you ~~can obviously~~ might be able to tell.

I am in love with these shots. SO happy with how they turned out! And I changed the blog header. You like? :)

How has your week been so far? ♥

i don't feel like being reasonable.

2011-09-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

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Sometimes, a girl just has to curl up with a bowl of ice cream and have a really good cry.

So that's what I did last night.

I cried because I hate saying goodbye.

Goodbye hurts.

I hurt.

So I need to write about it.

My church is about half an hour away from where I live. I have church on Sunday mornings, youth group on the first Sunday night of every month, and small group every Wednesday night at someone's house (which is also about 30 minutes away). Plus I've been wanting to get involved with student leadership. Yikes.

That's about... 13 hours a month of driving?

I don't even want to know how much gas that costs.

Not to mention that my parents have to wait for me, since driving home and then immediately coming back to pick me up doesn't make sense.

So I knew what my dad was going to tell me.

I didn't want to hear it.

He said they're thinking of moving us to a different church.

I cried for my friends... for the familiarity... for the relationships I've developed over the five-ish years that we've been going there. I loved being able to call it "my church." I pictured myself growing deeper friendships, becoming more comfortable, and having an amazing time with those people during my last few years of high school.

But now it's all changing.

When I was younger, we traveled and moved around a lot. I never really felt like I belonged to one church, a place where I knew everyone. I crave deep relationships. It's my personality. I love people. I'm tired of surface-level friendships. I want to know people whom I can trust, count on, laugh with, cry with, and encourage. I was finally getting there. I developed bonds with people, lots of whom I've known since junior high.

And it's back to the beginning.

Back to being the new girl.

Back to feeling alone, faking a smile, not wanting to open my heart to change.

Source: overd0z.com via Tia on Pinterest

I know, like a good girl, I really should be saying, "It'll all work out in the end. God has an awesome plan. I should just trust Him and it'll all be fine." And truly, I know that in my heart.

I just don't want to accept it.

I want to fight it.

I want to hold onto this in my heart and keep resisting.

There are opportunities that might come by going to this new church. I've always wanted to be involved in helping to lead worship, and that option wasn't really available before.

Part of me doesn't care. Part of me is excited. Most of me wants to hide under the covers and never come out. But I can't. Life goes on. I still have to wake up, do school, go to swim practice, go to gymnastics, practice music, and everything else.

I have this anger inside me, and I want someone to blame. I want to blame my parents, but I know I can't, because I know they're trying to do the best thing. I can't blame God, because that's just ridiculous. It's the natural response, but I know that He cares for me so much. I want to blame someone. But there's no one to blame. So I'm stuck with this emotional mess inside, and I take it out on those around me. I know I shouldn't.

I can forget about it and smile for a little while, but it's always there, beneath the surface. I guess the only thing to do is ride out this wave of emotions.

I know, I know. It's not like I'm moving across the country. I'll still see those people. But it won't quite be the same, or as often. And I'll miss out on some friendships. But I get to make new ones.

It's really easy for me to make friends. I'm not a shy person. But the stubbornness inside me doesn't want to make new friends, because I like the ones I have already. I don't want any more change. I'm sick of it.

Writing is therapeutic for me, it really is. Sorry, I know this post is a bit of a downer, but I need some way to express what I'm feeling. I know, when I'm twenty, I'll look back and see how ridiculous this all was. But right now, in the moment, it's not that easy. I'll have to pray for strength, for acceptance, for trust.

And let time heal my hurt.

PS: Sorry for the Pinterest shots. I promise I only use those when I'm not feeling creative or haven't taken many pictures recently.

wake me up when september ends.

2011-09-05T15:29:00.000-07:00

Oh, my. How time flies. Can it really be September? No. I won't let it be September. But it is. Wasn't it January just a few weeks ago? 2011 has by far been the fastest-flying year, I think. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I'm growing up. Major sad face. I saw some adorable children last night at a park area, and they were laughing and giggling, racing each other, oblivious to anyone else, lost in their fantasy world that was so real to them. I can still remember those days. Why are they slipping away, disappearing faster than ever? Am I really starting sophomore year? I might be able to graduate a year early, so I'm doing some junior work... That's scary. Dude. AGH. Please, time, just slow down. Slow down for me.

Here are some pictures that I should have posted long ago (procrastination will forever be my vice)...

Mommy made breakfast! Don't know what it's called... egg-rice-bacon-sausage something-or-other?

It was delicious, anyway.

And recently I made crepes for the first time ever. YEAH. They were pretty good, for my first time! (:

(It's not supposed to be that thick. This was before I added the milk.)

I like watching the boys play together.

Thank you, Lord, for little blessings like a sprinkle of rain or a glorious sunset or a beautiful rainbow.

Your promises are so beautiful.

And now some wonderful Instagram goodness. ILOVETHATAPP. Yummy. :)

Um, yes, as you can see... I GOT MY OWN LAPTOP. Pretty stoked about that right there. :)

More Insta-love, anybody? Because I have a plethora here.

(Isn't my little brother a cutie? He's definitely not going to see this, because he hates it when I call him that!)

These make me happy. Photographer joy. I love this art! I'm going to put larger versions of my very favorite ones. Sorry, I know you just saw them, but I like big pictures. I wish I could keep every Instagram picture large and by itself, but that would make for a LOT of scrolling! So I will settle with displaying my faves.

Oh, and by the way, I downloaded the trial version of Photoshop CS5! ♥

JUST REMEMBERED. I got pretty excited when I saw that a short story I wrote and sent in to Teen Ink was published and chosen as an Editor's Pick! YAY. I would love it if you would read my story, and maybe rate it! The link... is... right... heeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrreeeeeeeee. :)

There are lots more things that I want to post about, but frankly, I want to enjoy my last day of freedom as much as I can! I'm still in denial, though. This can't be the end of my summer. No.

Yes.

Sigh.

Farewell, happy friends. I am off to face reality. Wish me luck.

spontaneous & draftless

2011-08-23T21:54:00.000-07:00

Recently I read this post by Rachel at Dramatic Elegance, and I fell in love with this idea. The idea to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks, to stop hiding your insecurities, to stop editing yourself. I want to stay pure, unchanged, unique. Not a copy. So I gave in and decided to do the challenge.

Draftless.

Source: weheartit.com via Kailyn on Pinterest

I find often times that I try to change myself depending on who I'm spending my time with. I have this need to make sure I'm socially accepted. I don't consider myself as someone who gives in easily to peer pressure, but I know it could turn into a problem with me if I don't address it now, and realize that nothing can change who God created me to be. But when someone asks me what school I go to, and I reply with a smile, "I'm home schooled," things can change. I don't know why there's such a stereotype, I really don't. I'm actually very outgoing, an extrovert, a people person. I honestly don't think there's much of a difference between me and an average human being. But it takes a bunch of extra effort to impress someone after you've told them you're home schooled. They categorize you in their minds, into a class of "probably not very cool." And then I've heard people tell me that I'm actually pretty normal. When they say that, they actually sound pretty surprised, as if I should be weird in some way.

This is the hardest thing I have to deal with, I think. I make friends pretty easily, but I find myself reluctant to share the fact that I don't go to a regular school. I honestly don't see why it makes such of a difference.

Draftless.

I like this. I think I do.

I'm a writer. I absolutely adore creating beauty with the words I weave. But I can also be kind of obsessed with editing. When I write chapters of stories, I usually edit as I go, and when I force myself to change things as little as possible, to just let my words flow through my fingers without rewriting and rewriting, it takes a bit of discipline. But there's something so liberating about getting all your thoughts out like this. You should try it sometime. It's actually rather therapeutic.

I apologize there aren't any of my pictures in this post... I haven't taken that many blog-worthy ones recently so I decided to snag some from Pinterest, for the first time ever. Goodness, I like that site.

Source: flickr.com via Kailyn on Pinterest

I don't want to hide from my Creator behind a facsimile of myself. I want to discover the person He intended me to be. To live freely, kindly, passionately, fully, lovingly, beautifully. I don't want to waste the precious time I have here being a fake, shallow person. I want to be deep. I want to be unique. I want to rise above the low bar of mediocrity and become something great. When my life is over, I want to be proud of what I accomplished. I want to look back on every single day and think, "I did my absolute best." That seems like such a monumental task, to be honest. I fail all the time. But I want to try harder. I want to be a person who is more dedicated, a better example, inspiring, unscripted.

With school starting, that's even more true. I don't start until September (happy about that!), but when I do, I want to be focused, willing to be taught (that one's a struggle for me), eager to learn. I'm starting a new online program that I've never done before, called Connections Academy, and to be honest, I'm a little nervous. I don't really know what to expect. I hope it works well for me!

Oh, by the way, what do you think of the little blog design change? I rather like the way the header turned out... It sort of gives a vintage feel, dontchya think? Tell me your opinion of it! (:

I started swim team again yesterday after a two week break. Yeesh, I think I lost a bit of stamina! Just two weeks, and I find it more difficult. I'm breathing harder, feeling a bit more tired than usual, and I don't think I'm quite up to where I was yet. A few more days, and I'll get back into the groove, but man two hours a day kills!

I love my little brother. Just wanted to say that.

One of my goals is to write another post by Friday. Some things to look forward to? Photography. That's a given. Some links to some sites/apps I'm addicted to. Life stories. Thoughts. Ramblings. I've been really wanting to start some kind of contest... maybe a photography contest, maybe some kind of other link-up? Hmm. I'll have to brainstorm. Any ideas?

This is my 50th post. Yay me! (:

Oh, by the way, I hit 70 followers a few days ago! THANKS. A lot. It really means so much to me when you guys post with such encouraging words and comments! It really makes my day. Doesn't it seem strange to make friends through Blogger? But I find that I have. There are so many beautiful people on here. It makes me happy.

My mom made spaghetti and green beans for dinner. I'm one happy girl right now.

Anyway, I really, really enjoyed writing this post! It's so relaxing to let your mind wander and your thoughts flow onto the page. I'm going to have to do this more often. I have a journal, which I love writing in, but I'm not as diligent as I probably should be. Blogger is that little extra outlet that I find helps me self-examine myself a lot. I love sharing my dreams and ideas, and I hope you liked this as much as I did. Thanks, Rachel, for this lovely idea!

On a happy note, I shall say good night and happy Wednesday to you all! ♥

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san diego ♥

2011-08-14T20:04:00.000-07:00

Right now, I'm sitting in a hotel room, as I have been for about 24 hours straight. So yes, to answer your question, I'm a little stir-crazy. But we're in San Diego, baby!

We're here for a conference my parents are attending, so many of the days won't be that exciting. Probably mainly consisting of babysitting the younger brothers and trying not to go insane. But oh well. At least I can blog.

Some of those insta-pictures are from this trip; some are older ones that I wanted to share. And that "I Bring It" T-shirt? I won it at camp for memorizing & reciting the entire chapter of Galatians 5. Pretty proud of that. :)

So anyways, we left for San Diego on Friday morning. I sat in the way back (as in 3rd row) with baby brother and all of our luggage. Kyler got the entire middle row to himself... but I can't let myself be sore about that. ;)

Kade and me in the back. We had a pretty awesome time, playing games together, talking about tons of things, and being silly. Please excuse his expression. It is VERY rare to get a picture with him in which he isn't acting ridiculous... You know how 8-year-olds are. ;)

As we were driving, someone happened to notice a RAINBOW right there in the middle of nowhere!! It wasn't raining or anything! Plus there was an iridescent-type ring around the sun, which was pretty awesome. I looked it up on Wikipedia and discovered that it's called a sun dog. When the sun reflects off hexagonal-shaped ice crystals floating high in the sky, it does... this. Apparently it's slightly rare? I don't know. In any case, it was legit.

^ Gah, window reflection. So annoying.

Okay. Funny story. (Not at all.) When we got to the hotel and started unloading all our stuff, I accidentally dropped the tripod. Smooth. And then, wouldn't you believe it, I let something VERY important and expensive slip out of the car and clatter onto the asphalt below.

Apparently I'm clumsy.

We got it the very day the iPad 2 came out. And now cracks snake across its glossy surface. It's kinda hard to see in this picture, but yeah. I felt pretty awful. My dad saved up to buy it. We're praying that possibly we can get just the screen replaced, since everything else seems to be working fine. But still. So embarrassing. In front of all the bellhops and basically anybody who happened to be walking nearby. Plus I looked not-that-great after an extremely long day of driving... Sigh. Life's great memories. -.-

So after that, it was easy to look at everything that went wrong in a negative light. When I took a shower, the light turned off by itself so everything was pitch black. Yay. (At least there was a motion sensor so it turned on again when I got out.) I made ravioli for us kids on one of those portable little hot plate thingamajiggers and spilled everywhere. Cool. (At least I didn't set something on fire.) I've lost my patience several times with my family. (At least God gives second chances.)

As I stood there, with the hot water pounding my back, I took a deep breath and prayed. For patience. Kindness. Selflessness. Responsibility. Positivity. All these traits that are so important. I should look at this trip as a way to grow as a person, to keep my temper, to be a better daughter and sister. I mess up so much, but my Savior has all the strength I need. I just have to let go and give control to Him.

These pictures make me happy. This little blonde-haired, blue-eyed, freckle-faced boy has a heart just as sweet as his angelic face. I love him. I do.

He can be quite annoying sometimes, as all younger siblings can, but still.

Doesn't this make your heart simply melt?

We went to the beach yesterday, and I was SO glad we had the opportunity to do that! Rented boogie boards and had a pretty epic time. You forget just HOW much fun boogie boarding is. What a rush! Someday I will learn how to surf, and it will be amazing. Just wait.

♥

I love them together. They're buddies. And just adorable.

If it weren't for you, Mommy, I wouldn't have any pictures of me at the beach. So thanks. :)

Baby girl, I love you.

You know, this is completely random, but I'm hankering for pizza. Seriously. I'm starving. I hope the parentals come home soon, because I can't take much more of this. I'm going loopy. AHH.

I love my family. And the beach. And you. Have a beautiful Sunday evening.

life-changing news!

2011-08-08T19:45:00.000-07:00

Hey, everyone! Guess what? I'm back!!! :)

First of all, camp was amazing. Definitely won't forget that experience! I might post more about some adventures that I had there later!

Secondly, thank you to my guest bloggers, who did a fantastic job while I was gone! Love you guys! I appreciate it so much; your posts were great!

Thirdly, I redesigned! Woot woot! Feeling pretty happy, as I always do after I redesign. Something about the hard work I put into figuring out how to make all the little details look good gives me such an accomplished feeling! :)

Fourthly, and this is what I am most excited about... My family and I went to Cheescake Factory on Thurdsay with a little envelope that held the future of us inside its paper flap.

My mom is currently in week 19 of her pregnancy, and we found out the gender of the baby.

Just wait.

We sat, huddled around the table, nervous with anticipation, as my mom slowly tore open the seal. With our family's history, it was quite likely to be a boy, so we were all expecting it. She took out the ultrasound picture, stared at it for a second, and then burst out,

"It's a girl!!!"

Which pretty much is the craziest thing that's happened to me in I don't even know how long.

I am getting a sister.

I have prayed for this ever since I can remember. I've dreamed about it, fantasized about it, hoped for it. And now it's really happening. I'm still kind of in shock. After that we went to the mall to buy a few baby girl outfits, and they are SO cute! I can't stand to wait until December for that little stinker to come out!

Is this not one of the cutest ultrasound pictures ever? She's looking back at the camera like she knows it's there. :)

I'm quite ecstatic, actually. I hope you have a lovely and wonderful Monday evening. :)

Jesus Loves Me {guest post by ashlyn}

2011-07-28T07:12:00.000-07:00

I sat beside Julia’s bed, rubbing her back, singing, in a quiet lullaby tone, the beloved hymn, true for all ages, founded in His Word, comforting, encouraging, “Jesus Loves Me.”

I sit. Feet propped up in front of me, one hand in my lap, my head leaning against the wall. Merely singing it. I don’t take Jesus’ love for granted; yet too often I don’t realize that this beautiful, tried and true hymn is not just a children’s song.

Instead, with its plainly-written words and uncomplicated message, it is the core of Christianity, our lives, the reason we are here. The well-penned words seem to arise from the soul, by an author whose song seems to spring from the heart, whose life was touched by the simplicity of the Love of Jesus. I seem to be carried back to the hill as I thoughtfully, ever so gratefully, contemplate the words. I envision the streets of gold beyond the pearly gates. Yes. A simple song -- with extreme depth.

Julia turns over. Her large dark blue eyes search my face. I look down at her, her expression serious, her hair strewn lightly around her face, her hands clutching her ‘blankie’ beside her. I’m finishing up the first verse, when she murmurs, “Take away.”

I stop, confused. Take away? Suddenly I remember. The second verse is her favorite. I begin singing it, and when I get to the requested line, “He died to take away my sin, let the little child come in,” her face lights up, and she smiles. It seems so gentle, sincere, genuine, that it touches me.

She sits up, hands in lap, and says, “Jesus loves you?”

I reply enthusiastically, “Yes, Jesus loves you, and me, because He made you! He made everything!” I go through the living things she recognizes -- family, pets, bugs, the trees and grass.

A whole new world opens up to her. She doesn’t quite understand everything yet, but she slightly comprehends it.

After meditating on that for a moment, Julia says, “Jesus made my swing! He likes to swing.” Could I help but agree? To her, Jesus is a friend. He made the swing because He loves to swing. Jesus made her because He loves her. For an almost-three-year-old, that is a good understanding of Jesus’ love.

She goes on. “Jesus made my basket,” pointing up to the woven basket on her dresser. “Jesus made my skirt! Jesus made my blanket.” I couldn’t very well explain to her that man made it; however, Jesus did make the wood which supplied the materials for the basket. He also made the sheep which provided resources to make the skirt and blanket.

We continue talking about what Jesus has made -- family, living things, materialistic possessions. She understands. She does not identify with the theological basis of when or how God made her, yet she does. Reaching out, she grasps with childlike faith the simple truth of her creation and His unending love, holding it to her heart.

“Jesus Loves Me.”
“Why, Julia?”“Because He made me.”

~~~~~~~~~

Ashlyn: A Christian, saved by the blood of the LORD Jesus Christ. A daughter, being homeschooled by her mom. A sister, to six (gasp) in September. Aspiring Photographer, loving and learning to Capture Memories for a Lifetime. Avid Piano Player, History Lover, and a girl who loves to write. {Read more about me here.}

blog - flickr - word wednesday photo challenge

Thank you for allowing me to guest post, Kailyn! It was a lot of fun! God Bless you all!

Dandelion { Guest Post by Rachel }

2011-07-26T05:36:00.000-07:00

I learn more about God
From weeds than from roses;
Resilience springing
Through the smallest chink of hope
In the absolute of concrete...
~Phillip Pulfrey, "Weeds," Perspectives

My heart goes out to dandelions...

...in so many ways.

There is the part that aches for their understanding, for those who spray them with poison and wish them gone...

...if only they could see that their small yellow blooms, which in their time will turn to the palest of ivory fluff, are the graffiti of the natural world.

Things seemingly annoying, foolish, carelessly scattered across both meadow and pavement...these are the things that draw the innocence from miles around.

Mum and Dad always said, "don't blow those seeds, they'll only spread."

We never saw seeds that would mar perfect lawns. We did not see vile blooms of pollen and unwanted colour.

We saw fairies, trapped in a sweet little orb, simply waiting to be freed into the summertime air by our own soft breath.

We saw bouquets of beautiful flowers to carry to Mumma, along with skinned knees and tangled braids.

We saw the beauty in the weed patch.

So take a step outdoors...

...and free the fairies with your breath.

Weeds are flowers too, once you get to know them. ~A.A. Milne

About the author: I, Rachel, am a 20 -year-old dreamy newlywed, and the author of DramaticElegance. My blood runs red with passion and delight...composed with hints of freshly brewed coffee, melted chocolate, and the ink from a thousand pens. My eyes glitter with stars and imagination...my nose is flooded with the aroma of country breezes and white jasmine. My lips are laden with poetry and prose, glory and honor to the King of the universe. I am the love child of music and candlelight. I am the daughter of Aslan, and my song is love. I am a princess of the Kingdom of Heaven. I am a thundering whisper. I am a roaring lamb.

I am only me.

(You can also find me on my twitter, you can email me, and you can also check out my giveaway.)

Watermarking (A Guest Post By Meredith)

2011-07-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!!! Happy Monday!! My name's Meredith and I'm a blogger over at Meredith Sledge Photography. Let's just start by saying I'm incredibly honored to be guest posting for Kailyn today! The opportunity arose a few days ago and I basically jumped out of my desk chair and hopped up and down when she said I could. I have been wanting to guest post for someone for so long and this was the perfect opportunity. If my first guest posting was on anyone's blog, I'd want it to be Kailyn's.

It took me a while to think of a topic to post about but then I came up with one! When I first started my blog, I was taking lots of pictures and I really wanted to watermark my images, but I didn't know how. I couldn't find any blogs that showed an easy and fast way to do so! That's why I'm going to show you all an easy way to put the logo of your choice on your pictures! I am not the Photoshop master so if I use any incorrect terms or do anything crazy weird, I'm sorry. I'm slowly learning. So here goes.

First, you need to open an image in Photoshop. I picked a vertical image but a horizontal will obviously work too. Next, make sure your Actions tab in open.

Then, you need to start recording your process so everything you're doing will be saved. When you press the record button, a box should pop up asking you to name your action. You can name it Watermark or Logo or whatever you choose.

What you'll probably want to do now is resize your image. You don't necessarily have to do this but it speeds up the process when blogging or downloading your images anywhere else on the web.

I don't exactly know what people usually resize their images to, but I do mine half of what they are after being exported from Lightroom. I guess you could always go smaller than that, though.

Now you get to start playing around with the text! :) This is the fun part.

This is why I change my font color to white. If you go into your Layers tab and click on Overlay, your text becomes a little transparent which makes it blend in better. After you've done that, you can move your text to wherever you choose on your image.

And now you're done!! Be sure to hit the stop button to create your new action.

Now every time you want a picture resized with your personal logo on it, you can just hit the Play button and it will do just that! Pretty easy, huh?!

Alrighty, I realize that was pretty long but I'm hoping these steps helped you create your logo!! Sometimes seeing so many pictures and words can be a bit confusing so if you need any help or have any questions, feel free to stop by my blog to ask. :) You can also email me at meredithsledge@yahoo.com. :D

(ABOUT THE WRITER)
I'm 17 and love the Lord.
I couldn't be more obsessed with shoes.
I adore taking pictures with my Canon Rebel.
I think Twitter is the greatest invention ever.
I have a really cute dachshund.
I'm a huge Apple fan.

the journey is nearly here...

2011-07-23T11:22:00.001-07:00

Last night I watched Titanic for the first time.

I swear I sobbed for 10 minutes straight.

I don't know what made me so emotional, but it just really touched me. So tragically romantic. It was real.

Plus, the fact that it did really happen to 1,517 people. They really died. It really was horrific.

I'm depressing myself, so I should stop. But I loved it. The plot, the characters, the depth of emotion.

What a beautiful masterpiece.

---

Anyway, on a happier note, I am going to camp TOMORROW! I can't wait. I'm SO excited. For some reason, whenever I'm about to go to camp, I have recurring nightmares about forgetting my sleeping bag! Isn't that odd? And the other night I dreamed that when we arrived, it was the dead of winter, and we had to push an ENORMOUS log up a hill for no reason!! Which doesn't even make sense, because it's summer! So that was pretty random.

I have acquired three lovely guest bloggers that will post while I am gone! Here's the schedule:

Monday, July 25 -- Meredith

Tuesday, July 26 -- Rachel

Thursday, July 28 -- Ashlyn

I can't WAIT to see their lovely posts when I get back! So excited! :)

Apologies for the lack of much interesting content in this post... I have to go shopping today, go to get an eye checkup so I can buy more contacts, and freak out while making sure I have everything packed! Wish me luck!

Auf Wiedersehen! :)

calling all bloggers!

2011-07-21T14:28:00.000-07:00

Do you love writing or photography? Do you have a great idea for a guest post? Do you want to possibly acquire a few more followers? Then this is a great contest for you!

I am leaving for camp on Sunday, so I will be gone July 24-30. I need some guest bloggers! I realize this is extremely short notice, so I won't be surprised if nobody enters, but hey, it's worth a shot! Here are some guidelines:

Email me by clicking the "contact" button on my sidebar, and come up with an interesting, fun post idea that you can share with me! I'll consider your idea, look at your previous work, and decide if you'll be right for this blog. Hopefully I'll end up with 1-3 guest bloggers!
Some ideas for great posts: photography, an interesting story, a recipe, fun clothing or hairstyle ideas, etc.... something you are passionate about!
Let me know what schedule works for you! I'll email you with a response as to which day(s) you'll be posting. You can post more than once if you have more than one idea that I like!
Also, at the end of your guest post, you may include a brief biography about yourself and your blog button to lead people over to your blog!
Make sure your post is well-written, neatly formatted, and professional.

That's pretty much all you need to know! Want to enter? Email me if you have any questions; I'd love to hear from you! Thanks, and happy blogging! ;)

hello there. this is an uncreative post title.

2011-07-19T19:16:00.000-07:00

I feel like writing something eloquent right now. Something thought-provoking, interesting, clever. But honestly, nothing is coming to me. I'm rather frustrated with myself. Have you ever felt that? Have you ever wanted to write something really well but found yourself at a loss?

Yes, well, anyway, I apologize for my current lack of wit. I'm sure something will come to me soon.

My brother's 13th birthday landed on Friday, and it was a lovely day. (How ironic that his birthday was on the same day Harry Potter came out... But more about that in another post.) I'll try to put some pictures up, but they're not stupendous, since the lighting was poor and I had to use flash. Bleh. -.-

Welcome to my new followers! Thank you so much for your kind comments. Love you all! :)

And since this post is really rather short, I shall entertain you with some photographs I've taken recently. Thank goodness a picture is worth a thousand words, eh? (Lame, sorry.)

(Thank you to Meredith Sledge at Meredith Sledge Photography for introducing me to an unorthodox but highly effective and interesting way to take macro photos without a macro lens! Read this post if you're curious.)

Hope you have a relaxing and wonderful Tuesday evening. :)

in the moment

2011-07-10T15:42:00.000-07:00

I am writing this as I sit at our dining room table, a window streaming sunlight into the spacious room, with the background noise of my family filling the air... the buzz of my dad's electric razor upstairs... the click-clack of my mom's fingers typing on a keyboard nearby... the laughter and, sometimes, fighting of my younger brothers... the roar of the crowd on the TV as a soccer team makes a goal.

I am writing this in our new house.

We have finally moved! Last night was our first night in this house, and I was so excited to sleep in my new room. I'm feeling pretty blessed right now, and so grateful that it's all worked out. God is awesome.

Yesterday was exhausting but beautiful in its way. We spent hours packing and carrying heavy boxes, going back and forth between houses, and unloading monstrous pieces of furniture like couches, mattresses, and chairs. My brother and I had to help more with the heavy lifting, since my mom can't lift things right now.

Last night, my dad and I had to drive back to our old house to get a few things (we still don't have all our stuff over here yet). So we rolled down the windows, opened the moon roof, turned the radio on, and it was wonderful.

I closed my eyes and smiled, letting the breeze whip my hair around and tickle my face. 80 degrees and perfect. For some reason, I love driving at night. The colors are all different, when the moon washes everything with it's silvery glow. It's peaceful.

As the summer has been flying by, I've been desperately trying to soak it all in. To feel deeper, to experience more, to create memories. And part of that has been trying to photograph everything, but at some point I have to sit back, put the camera down, and just... be.

In the moment.

There's no place I'd rather live.

I've decided I won't be continuing the 365 project. With all the crazy things happening in my life recently, I haven't had time to take a picture every day, and I've gotten off track with it.

However, just because it's too demanding to take a picture every single day, doesn't mean I won't continue to take hundreds when the opportunities arise.

I'm really in love with photography.

We. Have. Our. Own. Pool.

Awesome, much?

I made chocolate pudding pie for the fourth. <3

And my daddy and I went to a baseball game with fireworks, just the two of us.

It was beautiful.

Enjoy your Sunday. (:

mini photo shoot and moving

2011-06-28T22:07:00.000-07:00

Technically my brother took these pictures of me, but oh, well. ;) The first one is my personal favorite!

(number 10 of 365)

(scarf, t-shirt = target; necklace, shorts, sweater = forever21)

I won't be posting very frequently for a couple weeks, because...

We finally found a house! :D

Granted, it wasn't my first pick, but it's definitely nice, bigger than our current house, and a lot cheaper than most! We'll be able to save a lot of money by renting it, which makes me happy. :)

The packing doesn't make me happy, though.

(number 12 of 365)

It's exhausting! Phew! And I'm really going to miss this house. We've spent four or five lovely years in it, which is probably the longest I've lived in a single house. I've moved so much! But, oh, well. New pages, new chapters. Change is bittersweet. Life really is a blank canvas to color on. :)

(number 9 of 365)

And I really love my family. I'm so glad they're all here with me through this crazy ride.

(number 11 of 365)

summer dreams & fears

2011-06-25T13:12:00.000-07:00

(number 8 of 365)

Taken with our new Canon Powershot SD1300 IS. Not as fancy as our Nikon D5000, but a pretty decent point-and-shoot. I couldn't help trying it out. ;)

Summer. The word itself tastes sweet, like the juice of strawberries or watermelon. It brings to mind visions of warm breezes, wheat fields swaying, sunsets, fireworks, nostalgia, laughter, friendship, memories, freedom.

I'm so excited for the rest of this summer. I want to make it worthwhile. I only have a few left before I'm off to college. And that really scares me. Doubts and worries whirl through my mind. Am I ready? Will I be able to afford it? How will I get the money? Should I get a job soon? Where will I even attend college?

I need to take a deep breath.

Life is happening so fast. I don't want to miss a second of it.

So many things are uncertain. There's a high risk of something going wrong with my mom's pregnancy. It scares me to the core. I don't know how I would cope if something did happen. We have to be out of our house in about 30 days, and we haven't even started packing. There's hope, but it seems dim right now.

I know Jesus holds my future and life in His hands. I have to trust Him. I do trust Him. But it's hard.

I want to accept whatever He gives me and enjoy life to the fullest through it all. I don't want to miss the little things that pass by so quickly -- the small pleasures and joys that compose the beauty of life.

(number 6 of 365)

Frozen grapes are the best. :)

Lord, there is so much beauty in life. You've created such passion in me to want to be something special, to fulfill my dreams, to follow You. I know I fail most often, but I want desperately to be closer to You.

This summer, I want to be productive. To live fully and do my best. To take too many pictures. To type stories until I get writer's cramp. To play guitar until I get blisters. To sing and laugh myself hoarse. To be kind, compassionate, and selfless. To learn to dance. To fill the air with the scent of cookies or something scrumptious that I'm making. To play beautiful, heart-stirring music on the piano. To learn the bass and drums. To re-learn violin. To pray every day. To read my Bible for hours. To never take my eyes off the One Who loves me beyond a shadow of a doubt. To trust. To believe. To worship.

To smile.

(number 7 of 365)

Iced coffee makes me smile. ♥

Surprise!

2011-06-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

Well, if you've clicked on the link to come to this post, you will have seen that... *drumroll*

I redesigned! Woo-hoo! I absolutely love graphic design, and I wanted to give this blog a cleaner, fresher look. What do you guys think? Let me know if you have any suggestions! :)

Oh, and um... I HAVE 50 FOLLOWERS! Yippeeeeeee! Thanks, guys. I love every one of you! <3

Here are the next few pictures of my 365 project. I actually didn't get the chance to take a picture Wednesday or yesterday, but I'm going to take a few extra pictures today to make up for that. :P

number three:

Boys and their games.

number four:

Delicious, home-grilled turkey burgers, with a wheat bun, American cheese, and ketchup. HEAVENLY. ^-^

number five:

I swear my little brother is the cutest boy in the world. He really is. <3

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So I love coffee. A lot. But I don't usually drink it. I don't really know why. I still have a Starbucks card from my birthday that I haven't used yet. Anyway, what to do when the weather is hot? Well, drink iced coffee, of course! Starbucks has little on-the-go iced coffee packets, and you just have to mix the powder with cold water and ice, and voila! Delicious coffee. I had some last night before bed. A huge cup of it. Caffeinated, of course. Needless to say, not the best idea. It took me a little longer than usual to fall asleep, but oh, well. It was worth it. :)

I wanted to include a bunch of other things in this post, but I think I'm going to save them for later. I might even post again today, if I so choose. I rather love writing. I might not be able to contain myself. So if I post again before 24 hours has passed, you'll know that I just couldn't help it! ;)

How was your week? Do you have any plans for this weekend?

three hundred sixty five days

2011-06-18T18:20:00.000-07:00

I have decided to start a three-six-five project like Hannah's at Aspire in which I shall take a photo every single day for a year. :) June 17, 2011 - June 18, 2012.

I'm really excited.

I can't wait to look back at the culmination of my memories and smile.

Here's number one, yesterday's:

number two:

And I decided to include some other pictures in this post that I've taken recently. Enjoy. :)

I got this bracelet at the theme park I went to on Tuesday! Isn't it so cool?!

Hope you liked them! Tell me what you think! Do you have a certain one you like the most? :)

Have a wonderful Saturday evening! ♥

Do you like roller coasters?

2011-06-16T15:52:00.000-07:00

Because I do. A lot.

On Tuesday I went to a theme park. ^-^

It was a crazy day. I got to my church at about 7:30 a.m. and we all (approx. 70-90 people) boarded the double-decker bus. It was so cool; I'd never ridden in one before! The trip took about 2 or 3 hours, and we passed the time by listening to music, playing a seemingly endless game of Life on someone's iPod, and (of course) talking. ;)

Finally we arrived! It was a gorgeous day, and once we got tickets, I went with my small group of four other girls to find some rides. The day passed in a blur, filled with joyous screams, laughter, and silly conversations. It was so nice just to be ridiculous and embrace that dare-devilish side in me. There was one of those tower rides where it takes you to the tippy-top and then free-fall drops you so fast you can't help but scream your head off, certain you're going to die, and then stops just before you hit the ground. I rode that one three times with a friend.

It. Was. So. Fun.

During a section of time in which we were waiting in line, I found out that a guy actually proposed to a girl when they were at the top of one of those similar drop-zone rides. He apparently said that it represented all the highs and lows in their relationship. Now, I don't think that's my ideal proposal, but I found it sweet just the same. And isn't it true? I realize this is one of the most clichéd phrases ever, but I have to say it.

Life is a roller coaster.

I've realized that even more during recent months, where life has been so confusing, hectic, and scary. There are highs, and they are beautiful, but there is an equal (and sometimes greater) amount of lows. They are rough, and there is no explanation as to why they come. They just do. And we have to be strong enough to endure them. God didn't promise life would be easy. He promised He would be with us through it all.

So I've just been thinking about that. It means everything to trust Him, to let go. Because that's when life is beautiful. That's when life is perfectly imperfect. When we accept the challenges, rise to meet them, and enjoy every single day we've been given.

In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. (1 Peter 1:6-7)

Troubled Times

2011-06-13T13:30:00.000-07:00

Oh, Lord, where are You?
Do not forget me here.
I cry in silence.
Do you not see my tears?
When all have left me,
And hope has disappeared,
You'll find me here.

This raw, emotional verse from the song "Crawl" by Superchick, pretty much describes me right now. I'm feeling really low emotionally, spiritually... Just overall depressed. I know I shouldn't be this way, for God is the God of peace and joy. He controls my future. But it's really hard to see where He's going to take this difficult situation in my life.

My family is moving, and that in and of itself is a monumental task. Moving takes so much effort and planning, plus we only have a month to do it. We still haven't even found a house to rent. On top of that, my mom is the one who is always in charge and on top of things, but with the pregnancy, she's feeling really sick and drained.

We did find a house that was, ironically, right next to my best friend's house. I thought it was simply meant to be. Honestly, it was too perfect -- too good -- to be true. Visions danced through my head of spending hours and days with Claire, enjoying lazy summer days, swimming in each other's pools, talking over the backyard fence, and simply being together. I should have known better than to get my hopes up. We sent in an application to rent it, but someone else got there first. So now we are still looking.

This will mean a whole lot of change. I will probably have to switch swim teams. I've been a part of my current team for about three years. Also, I might not be able to continue doing gymnastics. It's something I love, and it will be really hard to have everything change. It hurts when you finally get into a pattern, groove, or niche, and the rug is ripped out from under you. Sometimes you fall hard. You just have to get back up.

With all these crazy things going on, I'm going to be spending a lot more time in the Word and prayer. I know that my only real comfort can come from God, and I need His guidance during this crazy season of life. Thankfully, it's summer, so I'll have a lot more free time to soak up His goodness.

Sorry if this post sounded a bit melodramatic. Part of me wants to wallow in despair, but I know I can't. I have to rise above this, trust God has an awesome plan for my family and me, and have peace in the knowledge that He is giver of good things. This will get better. I know it.

Hello, my friends. It's nice to see you. :)

2011-06-11T17:11:00.000-07:00

I have returned to blog world. I missed you all dearly, and am SO glad to be writing again! This post really won't be that special... More of just a blurb, letting you all know that my "redesign," I guess you'd call it, is finished, and getting some updates out there! It is so nice to have an outlet in which to channel your feelings and little musings about the world.

Life has been really crazy. And that is an understatement, to be sure. First of all, my family is going to be blessed with a new little member soon! By the end of this year, if all goes well, I'll have another sibling. It's wonderful, amazing, incredible, unbelievable, scary, and exciting at the same time! It is such a huge change, and will mean many more changes down the road, but God is good. :)

I can't believe I'm a sophomore now. It's really quite astonishing. Life is practically flying by. During the school year, it seems like time is dragging on and on, but then summer comes along, and you realize how little time has actually passed. I'm finishing up chemistry, and then moving on to physics next year. Fun stuff. (Not really.) I've been looking at different colleges, trying to plan for the future. When you really sit down and contemplate where you're going to go with your life, it is extremely daunting and hard to imagine how you'll ever make it through. When I think about all the monumental fees that come with college, the choices I'll have to make, the difficult goodbyes, scary beginnings, and life changes, it really seems like it all is just going to crush me. But I know that somehow, it will be okay, because God works for the good of all those who love Him.

As with all the changes come new opportunities and memories. I am learning to take these things in stride, to trust God, and let Him decide my future. It's hard to surrender, but my life belongs to Him already. I need to let go of my illusion of control and just enjoy what He gives me. I want to live a life of passion and joy.

Really...?

2010-10-17T17:22:00.000-07:00

Well, hello, friends. It's been a while.

I can't believe how long I've been away from this blog! It's crazy! But I'm back now. So much change has happened in my life since May, (yes, May) and it's hard to believe how far I've come. I'd like to apologize for my extended absence without warning, and to assert that there will definitely be more posting from now on. I've missed all my Blogger buddies! :)

So, just like the change that's happened in my life, there will be a lot of changes to the blog. I feel the need to start fresh.

Definite Changes:

Design/layout
Color scheme
Frequency of the posts (obviously, haha!)

Possibilities:

Blog name change
Blog URL change

What do you think? Any ideas? :)

PS: The blog WILL be under construction for a while, so don't worry if you come here and everything looks wacko. Haha!

My Brothers, Myself, & Letting Go

2010-05-08T13:10:00.000-07:00

My brothers are the best. That might sound weird, coming from an older sister, but it's true. They are. I've been blessed, and I hate the guilty feeling I get whenever I'm mean to them. If I truly AM grateful, and love them as much as I say I do, I should be willing to do anything for them, and put myself above them, always. But I don't. I struggle. And I've needed a deep, personal post. Hannah recently posted a beautiful video, and I still can't get over how true and real it is. Bekah also posted a wonderfully personal post. I know I need one now.

Recently, my youngest brother (seven) learned how to ride his bike without training wheels. When I heard that my dad was going to help him, I raced upstairs to grab the video camera. It was sunset, and I recorded a few minutes of them riding up and down the street, observing the frustration and determination in my brother's face. My dad encouraged him whenever he fell, helping him up whenever he needed it.

I watched my dad gripping the back of the seat, running along as my brother pedaled. Then came that heart-stopping moment -- he let go.

When I learned to ride my bike without training wheels, I was probably around my brother's age, and I still remember it. I was at a friend's house. My dad was helping push me along, and I kept stopping and falling. I got frustrated -- didn't know why it was happening. He told me that no matter what, I couldn't stop -- I had to keep pedaling.

I can ride a bike without training wheels. Whoopdie-doo. It's normal. Most people my age can do it -- and some a lot better than I can. But so what? It doesn't matter. I want to be a strong enough person that I can learn to live without training wheels.

Right now, my parents are my training wheels, and they steer and guide me in the direction I should go, correcting me when I go off course, relieving some of the burdens of life and responsibility. And God, my Father, is holding onto the seat. But there will be a day in the not-too-distant future where God will unscrew the two extra wheels from my bike. He'll take me onto the street, push me, and let me go.

Honestly, I'm scared of that day. What if I'm not ready? What if He lets me go and I swerve and fall? These doubts race through my mind, filling me with the legitimate fear of life. I want to prepare myself -- to bloom into someone amazing, who doesn't put herself first, but ALWAYS thinks of others, no matter what. And it'll be hard. But that's the beauty of it all -- He'll let me go, but He will never leave. He'll still be running beside me, ready to help me up when I fall -- because I will fall, eventually.

I need to keep pedaling.

There's no option to stop. I have to continue the race that is set before me. If I give up, I'll never move forward -- I'll be stagnant, staying back with the crowd instead of running ahead, lighting the way, and being a new rebel.

The Wonderful Craze of Tags

2010-05-01T16:50:00.000-07:00

Wow, so I have not posted in... how long? Don't want to know. TOO long, that's for sure. Anyway, I have an insane amount of things to write about, and to include them all in one post would be suicidal! So, for your convenience, I'm spreading them out into little categorized posties -- bite-sized morsels for easy digestion. Happy? I knew you'd be. I missed you, too. *group hug*

So, Kendrabelle tagged me. This is my first tag ever, so... yay! :P Wonder who started this tag fad. Anyway, I'm just going to do a few tags in this post. Read and relax. :D

Rules: 8 books you'd like to live in (mine aren't in order) and why, then tag 8 people! Easy ;)

Book 1: Eragon. Had to snatch Kendrabelle's for this one. *dreamy sigh* To live in a world of dragons and magic would be incredible, and Alagaesia is so beautiful!

Book 2: Lord of the Rings. Surely this doesn't need a why?? *sigh* If you must know, it's because I think Tolkien was one of the greatest fantasy geniuses on the earth. His world is so complete, it's hard to believe it doesn't really exist. Every race has its own back story, its own legends, its own customs and ways of life. It's just so rich with detail, and I'd love to meet the Hobbits :) Elves, too, but I do love the Hobbits. «-- Okay, that was quoted from Kendrabelle, and I doubt I could put it any better!

Book 3: The Chronicles of Narnia. Okay, apparently she and I have very similar tastes in books, and I will have to agree with yet another! Oh, to live in Narnia would be my dream! The beauty and mysterious romance of the forests are things that I live for! To sit in a throne at Cair Paravel, free to saddle my own beautiful horse and gallop along the coast or among the trees, practice archery, or just bask in the beauty of the land... to meet Aslan, Mr. Tumnas, Susan, Lucy, Peter, Edmund, the centaurs... *extreme longing-filled sigh* Such would be incomprehensible!

Book 4: Peter Pan. Last one of Kendrabelle's, I promise! Really, there's not much to say about this one, you know. It speaks for itself. I would also say that Neverland ranks up there with Narnia. When I was a kid, I just dreamed of flying. I imagined it all the time! Peter Pan = awesome! (When I was around 6 or 7 years old, I just knew he was real, and I wrote in a Neverland coloring book that I wanted to marry him when I grew up! Ha ha!) Trust me, I'd win the friendship of Tinkerbell, too! And the mermaids would be lovely companions. Don't worry, with my mad social skillz, I'd have them reformed and friendly in no time! =P

Book 5: Percy Jackson. Heh, I must say, the series hooked me! *screams to the world* I WANT TO BE A DEMIGOD! Sadly, that is impossible. I must learn to accept my own mortality, crying for the friend I never had in Annabeth (who totally rocks). Seriously, I'd spend ALL DAY with her! She's awesome!

Book 6: Nancy Drew. The series has been my obsession since I was 7-8 years old, when I bought my first ND book (#20: Clue in the Jewel Box). Since then, I've played the PC mysteries (which are bomb.com), and collected/read all the books. I'd live in River Heights, a small city where mysteries happen ALL the time. Everybody would ask me for my case-solving expertise, even though I'd be a teenager, because they'd respect Carson Drew's -- my father's -- reputation as a prominent lawyer. Hannah Gruen would cook scrumptious meals for me, and I'd consult Carson before beginning harrowing missions, which Hannah would warn me about fearfully. He'd cautiously say yes, and I'd ride off in my blue roadster with Ned, Bess, and George. We'd investigate some creepy mansions, find some secret passageways, get knocked out by bad guys, and come close to death, only to miraculously survive every time! Now that's what I call fun! xD

Book 7: Hardy Boys. I think I enjoy the more recent series more than the older ones, but still, Franklin W. Dixon rocks! Frank and Joe are totally cool stunt-pulling, ATAC-loving, crime-fighting, truck-driving, shade-wearing, case-solving, karate-knowing, parrot-owning teenage detectives, and if you don't know about them... SHAME! Either go into a little corner and cry, or read the books! I'd suggest the latter, haha.

Book 8: The Time Machine. (H.G. Wells) Read this book, I tell you! It's amazing! Wells is a genius, and his story is nothing short of incredible! Even though it's rather short, you'll be hooked, and won't believe the incredibly mind-boggling things that happens when the Time Traveller invents a time machine! Here, let me copy the story summary on the back of the book:

When a Victorian scientist propels himself into the year 802,701 A.D., he is initially delighted to find that suffering has been replaced by beauty, contentment and peace. Entranced at first by the Eloi, an elfin species descended from man, he soon realizes that this beautiful people are simply remnants of a once-great culture -- now weak and childishly afraid of the dark. They have every reason to be afraid: in deep tunnels beneath their paradise lurks another race descended from humanity -- the sinister Morlocks. And when the scientist's time machine vanishes, it becomes clear he must search these tunnels if he is ever to return to his own era.

Ahem. 'Nuff said. ;D

Whew! That was fun! Now, pay attention, for I must tag 8 people. (Forgive me if I did anything wrong; I'm new to all this tagging business.)

Hannah
Bekah
Eldarwen
Alex
Josh
Jake
Melody
Lindsay

Next tag! This is from Ashley, who just started following this blog! Thanks and welcome, Ashley!! She tagged anyone who plays guitar/loves black/owns a ferret. Um... I only apply to the first two. Sadly, I do not own a ferret. Or maybe not sadly. But I'd never get one, even if I wanted it. (Why? One word = Mom.)

1. How many toes do you have?
I have twelve. No, seriously. My second toe on each foot is basically as long as two pinkie toes. Scary...

2. How many bones have you broken?
ZERO! I really find that hard to believe, because I do dare-devilish stunts ALL the time. I guess I'm just one lucky ducky. But I have this really morbid longing to break a bone, because... war wounds are cool, and also, everyone else thinks it's awesome, AND... people sign your cast, which is so awesome. Heh... Sorry, just the tomboy in me speaking, I suppose.

3. Name an epic thing that you have done.
I was born! Woot. Haha, no, um... I climbed up to the top of a Velcro wall last night, breaking blood vessels in my arm. And I beat a high-school guy over and over on the bungee-cord-run-as-far-as-you-can-and-stick-the-beanbag-on-the-Velcro game. But more about that later. Muahaha.

4. If you had a pet lemming, what would you name him?
Sam. I am Sam. Sam am I. Am I Sam? Sam I am!

5. What color are the clothes you're wearing right now?
Uh, black athletic shorts, and my orange swim camp T-shirt.

6. How awesome are orca whales on a scale of one to ten?
TEN! Cuz all God's creatures are incredible, unbelievable, and totally, beautifully, amazingly special! :D

8. How old do you want to be when you die?
Of course, it's in God's hands, but I'd say... 100! Because that's a special number. Triple-digits, heh. I'd wake up on the morning of my hundredth birthday, look out the window at the sun, feel happy and content, spend a last day with my loved ones, and at night, slowly slip into Heaven as I gaze at the stars. Ahh. :)

9. Name a pet peeve and an addiction.
Pet peeve = bad grammar
Addiction = God

10. Write a paragraph detailing your life. 100 word minimum.
I was very, very small when I was born. Probably smaller than you. Maybe as small as your little sister's baby doll. And I slowly got bigger as I grew. But that's besides the point, so I don't know why I started with it. Ahem. Yes. I've lived in four states (on both coasts) and approx. seven/eight houses, and moving makes me sad. I have an intense, indescribable passion for music. I couldn't breathe without it. But more importantly, an intense, indescribable passion for my Saviour, Who IS my every breath. I have wonderful parents who encourage me in everything, and sweet (mostly) brothers, who are my constant companions. :)

11. Name one thing that isn't really a secret, but that you haven't really gotten around to telling anyone.
Um... I make short humming noises in my throat when I'm reading or focusing on something. I guess that wouldn't need me to TELL someone... just hang around me for a while and you'll figure it out. Hee hee... my mom laughs at me when I do it, and sometimes it annoys people, but... oh, well. xD

12. Name another pet peeve.
Shallow celebrities.

13. Sprechen Sie deutsch?
Haha, I actually AM part German, and my grandma used to speak it to me all the time. I speak a little, but the only way I knew what this question said was by entering it into a translator, heh heh. Um... Ich liebe dich means I love you, bitte means please, danke means thank you, guten Morgen means good morning, auf Wiedersehen means goodbye/farewell, and... let me try to count. Eins, zwei, drei, vier, fünf, sechs, sieben, acht, neun, zehn, elf, zwölf, dreizehn, vierzehn, fünfzehn, sechzehn, siebzehn, achtzehn, neunzehn, zwanzig, etc. (I know how to SAY all of these, but I have no idea how to spell them, so I had to spell check all of them. Hah. But I got eight of the spellings right! Woot!)

14. Tell a joke.
A man walked into a library, said loudly, "I'LL HAVE FRIES, A CHEESEBURGER, AND A COKE!"
The librarian replied quietly, "Sir, this is a library!"
The man whispered, "Oh, sorry. I'll have fries, a cheeseburger, and a coke."

15. How many of the questions have you answered in a witty manner so far?
Ten. See for yourself.

16. Compose a haiku.

Nature is lovely
I breathe its gentle fragrance
The world is at peace

How was that? xD

17. Have you ever noticed how sour candies taste even more sour if you rub them on the side of your tongue?
Yes. *grimace*

18. What book(s) are you reading at the moment?
The Warriors series. Pretty interesting... I was surprised.

19. How many doors are there in your house?
Counting closet doors?? Uh... wait here. *runs around crazily* Seventeen, I think! Which is SO CREEPY, because that's the same number that Ashley counted. Whoa... *icy chills and scratchy violins*

20. How would you solve a problem like Maria?
How do you hold a moonbeam in your hand? :D

21. Think of something about yourself. Anything. Go on, think of it.
Stop talking; you're distracting me from my thoughts.

Now think of something more interesting. Write it down here.
Someday, I'm going to have a best-selling album and play concerts everywhere, be in movies, and be an author. Yeah. Ambitious, much?

22. What's wrong with your hands?
I have really long fingers, like Ashley! The similarities are startling. GASP. It could be because I'm a piano player, and I've inherited long fingers from someone in my family. (My dad has his Master's Degree in piano, but his fingers are normal sized. My mom thinks my thumbs are REALLY weird, because they're so long and straight. They look normal enough to me. I guess my fingers look weirder because they're both long and thin.) But that's not really something WRONG with them. My left hand is pretty fine, but my right hand sports some newly-acquired scars. (Read about that here.)

24. What's your favorite show tune?
"Memory" from Cats. Hauntingly beautiful, and so fun to play on the piano/sing.

25. Okay, you can tell us what that first thing you thought of for number 21 was. We all want to know.
DO you want to know? Surely you don't. It's boring. Meh.

...

FINE. I was trying to think of SOMETHING interesting. My mind was rambling along, stopping at boring places, and not achieving any kind of clear picture. Finally, the thought popped into my head that my eyes are blue. WEIRD. I looked next to me and saw The Swiss Family Robinson, and thought that the cover of it didn't match my eyes. It's more of a teal. then I saw a bracelet with a Caribbean blue color in it, and thought, That's like my eye color, only my eyes are a bit more gray. Yeah, my thoughts are always random like that... Something will cause me to think about something else, which leads to something else, and something else, until I end up thinking about something TOTALLY unrelated. Wow, this was a long answer, for one boring train of thought. O_o

I tag...
Anyone who:
a. Plays guitar
b. Plays the piano
c. Sings
d. Writes
e. Loves (notice, not likes, LOVES) the color blue
f. DOESN'T have a Facebook or a cell phone
g. All of the above (which would be awesome)

Yeppity yep. :D

Well, I'm kinda tired of tagging, and I have loooots of other things to post about, so peace out, people of the world! And... enjoy your pizza while it lasts. :)

PS: It's MAY DAY! Sorry, had a history moment there. If you don't know what May Day is, look it up.

Tah-Dah!

2010-03-28T14:43:00.001-07:00

I have officially re-designed. Woot! I'm so excited, and I'm really happy with how it turned out. Please post and/or vote on the poll to tell me what you think about it!

Off to pack! Love you guys! Bye!

Packing, Clouds of Gnats

2010-03-27T12:49:00.000-07:00

Hi, everyone!

I'm really tired, because last night I stayed up till about 11 at a friend's house. We had pizza and root beer floats for dinner! *smiles happily* She's on a softball team, so we practiced pitching outside, and the ball kept rolling down the street or hiding in the bushes. I don't know how many times I raced after it with her brother's scooter. There were HUGE clouds of gnats EVERYWHERE! I don't know why. It was rather gross, because you couldn't breathe without wondering if they were going into your lungs, haha.

No, I'm not packing clouds of gnats (haha), but I am packing! I'm SO excited for the missions trip! Keep us in your prayers!

And I started a poll (first ever) asking if I should re-design this blog. Feel free to post any design ideas you may have!

See you later! =)

It's Tragic!

2010-03-22T20:01:00.000-07:00

I am closing this blog. Goodbye.

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Haha, gotcha! Happy April Fool's Day! Why, you wonder, with a disgusted grimace on your face, is this poor deranged person posting slaphappy and unamusing jokes on her blog when it's NOT EVEN APRIL YET? Well, I have a perfectly logical and reasonable explanation for that. Um... let me ponder a moment. *gulp*

Kidding! It wasn't actually meant to be funny -- more of a way to get your attention, heh heh. (Also ignore the title of this post; it was merely a ploy to tickle your curiosity.) I probably won't be posting anything on that lovely day of foolery. BECAUSE I'm going on a missions trip! Woot! You might assume I'm going to Mexico or Puerto Rico or some other country, BUT... I'm staying in my own city! We're going downtown to help several different schools -- playing sports with them, fixing up things that need fixing up, working at our church's thrift store, etc.... =D It's going to be so incredible!

We're leaving Sunday evening and getting back on Thursday (which happens to be you-know-what). *points at the top of this post* Please pray for us -- our safety, our spirit of service, our ability to get things done. And pray for the kids at the schools -- that we'll make an impact in their lives, that we'll be able to connect with them, understand them, and reach out to them. Pray for God to help us to not waste a moment while we're there. =)

During a meeting about the trip, there were several suggestions flying around. My team is going to do a skit one of the nights. And there was an idea that we could have a worship night with the kids. I mentioned that I happened to play guitar, and suddenly I was scheduled to play/sing with a (dauntingly skillful) worship leader on Tuesday. So now I am going to play guitar in front of people I don't know for the first time in my life. *scream of excitement/mortification* (I started playing in the fall, FYI.) I'm also sharing my testimony that night, and I'm RATHER afraid. Eh, well... not afraid, per se... more like jittery, I guess. (EXCITEDnervous)

Snowboarding was ... *gropes for words* ... undeniably, absolutely, incontrovertibly AWESOME. You can't imagine what it was like unless you've done it. For my first run, a girl (who's been snowboarding for ten years) and I went to the tippy top of the mountain. Yes, it was my FIRST time. I was, er, rather terrified, but I trusted her. The SKI LIFT... ahh, the ski lift. *stares into space* It was one of the most breathtaking/gorgeous/scary/highest things I've ever done!! It goes on and on and on and on.... When you think you're going to get off, you realize that it goes higher. It's so very peacefully silent up there -- just you, the snow, the pines, and your thoughts (*COUGHandfearsCOUGH*).

We reached the top, and I strapped both feet into the board. On one side of the run, it was a wall of snow going up, and on the other... a sheer drop with pine trees clustered thickly along it. MEEP. The first thing I learned was tear-dropping, I think it was called. And no, I don't mean crying my eyes out in agony. You travel diagonally down, cutting across the mountain, and when you get to the edge, change direction and lead with your other foot. (Hee hee, I borrowed a leader's helmet, which had neon duct tape all over it. That, along with my bright green coat, made me pretty recognizable.) I was SUPER extremely slow at first, but I eventually got pretty good at it, and learned how to make S-shapes down the mountain, traveling pretty fast. All in all, one of the BEST days in my life. (Went down the entire mountain about three times that day, then went back up and went down from about halfway. It took about an hour to an hour and a half to descend entirely. Sounds shocking, but you do not notice time in the glorious silence of nature, whizzing along, with the sound of your board skimming across snow to keep you company.) It was snowing heavily, and it looked exactly like Narnia! (Minus the ski lifts and the hundreds of people...)

Sorry it's taken me so long to post, but I just got back from vacation! We went to a beautiful hotel with a nice pool and had a lovely time! For pictures, click here.

Thank you for reading! I have to go, since it's late and I haven't had dinner yet, but expect a post pretty soon!

Hasta la pasta!

Happy Birthday to... ME?

2010-03-04T20:19:00.000-08:00

Ah, yes, another birthday has come and gone. It feels like my last birthday was YESTERDAY. Can an entire year have passed?

*sigh of annoyed realization*

Yes, it can, and it DID -- it just sneaked past me in the shadows. (High school will NEVER stop sounding ominous until you're completely past it, I guess.) I feel like an old person. Isn't it strange, how young people always think themselves so old, and old people are in denial and think themselves young? Living in the future, and living in the past... It seems no one is EVER satisfied with their age these days. There's always something you CAN'T do, something you WILL be able to do, and something you COULD do. Oh, goodness me. (It occurred to me that I used a lot of CAPITALIZED words in this paragraph... Oh, well. Screaming is always fun.)

Well, for the official BIRTHday, my mom was out of town, so we got lunch at an awesome place called Panera Bread (broccoli cheese soup, honey wheat bread, and my OWN Caramel Freeze) and then saw a movie. My brothers (with their money) bought me a gift, which was so sweet!

And then, when my mom came back, we had an entire family celebration -- lounging around the house, watching a rental movie, opening gifts, and then (after youth group) eating my favorite... ANGEL FOOD CAKE!! Cuz seriously, there's a reason why they call it angelic. No other desert makes me feel so heavenly. I just ate the last slice this afternoon (sniff sniff), with strawberries and vanilla ice cream. *dreamy, blissful smile*

Yeah, that's my idea of a birthday... just relaxing, in Bekah's words. I like hanging with the fam, doing things that I enjoy... for example, last year, I went ice skating, which was SO fun!

I got some new clothes and candy (York Mints are BOMB.COM!). I finished opening everything, and then my dad said there was one more present. "A new car!" he announced in a dramatic voice. I played along, screaming giddily and dangerously jumping off the ottoman as I raced to the garage. (Of course it wasn't a car, sillies.) There, shining and gleaming, with a helmet on the seat, was a brand new light-blue mountain bike! Yeah, baby! I rode it today, which was FUN.

(I'll definitely try to get some pictures of birthday stuff!)

So, all in all, I had an AWESOME time. I just wish I weren't so OLD. Haha.

And I'd like to apologize for the lack of substantial posts on my blogs. I have been busy with school and other stuffs, and I'm going to be really busy this weekend. I'm going to the mountains on Saturday (from 7 am to 7 pm), and I have church on Sunday (also a 3-hour meeting about our youth group's missions trip), and then I have a 5:00 am morning on Monday, gymnastics in the evening, and then I have to go spend the night at a friend's house, where I'll be babysitting a three-year-old and a sixteen-month-old baby. YIKES. Crazy, eh? I'm kinda tired just thinking about it. But I shouldn't be complaining. I love to do all of that stuff. It'll just be kinda jam-packed.

(More photo-ops! Let you know if I have time to get any pics.)

I'm REALLY excited, and just waiting in agony for Saturday to come. One of the worship leaders let me borrow her cool-looking snowboard, so I'm going to be able to take it up to the mountains and go snowboarding for the FIRST time in my life! I am stoked, peoples! Woo hoo! =D

I'd like to say HI to all the new followers. I love you all!

I have a lot going on, but I also have a lot of stuff I want to do with these blogs -- posting more, uploading pictures, working on HTML.... Ugh, if only there was more time in the day. I'll get to it, just don't expect it this weekend. I might be able to squeeze it in, but I apologize in advance if I can't update anything! You guys rock!

Wish me luck -- that I won't run into trees on Saturday!! Haha.

See you!

In Which Kailyn Writes Five Sentences & Announces a Very Exciting Link

2010-02-25T21:18:00.000-08:00

This is THE shortest post I have EVER posted, and I feel rather silly giving such a meager tidbit, but I am SO excited to show you my newest blog design!! (I don't have time to include anything else in this post.)

CLICK HERE!

Woo hoo -- tell me what you think about it!! Have a great Friday! =D