Recently, I've been anticipating the future — a lot. Opportunities are opening up to me everywhere I look, and I'm really embracing what it means when people say, "You've got your whole life ahead of you." Because I really do. I have the power to make the choices that shape my future. I have so much potential stored up inside of me — and I don't want to waste any of it. I'm scared of growth, but I'm scared of staying where I'm at. I'm scared of success, but I'm scared of mediocrity. Basically I'm just worried about the future. However, for all the nervousness, there is an equal, if not greater, amount of excitement. I'm excited for this life. I'm stressed about what I'm going to do about college — but I'm so excited, too.
People have been asking me more and more about my photography, and I'm booking more sessions with people. My business is just kicking off, and I'm so stoked about it. This will be a great way for me to earn money doing something I absolutely love.
More things to be nervous about — I'm turning sixteen on Monday. Is that crazy, or what? Two more days, and then I'm there... That age I used to dream about when I was younger, that age everyone wants to be. Sweet sixteen. The phrase holds so much promise. What will I do in my next year of life? How will I spend this age? I want to live it fully, and as Hannah says, intentionally. I want to make the most out of this year. I want to grow in my relationship with God, hone my skills, and be a better, more beautiful person inside.
My dad is looking into getting me a driver's permit soon — we've procrastinated about it, so I haven't gotten it yet — and I'm so excited and scared. That kind of describes me right now.
excited & scared.
But it's a lovely combination of feelings, isn't it? It really is.

























































