recently i've been doing a lot of growing up.
it's a little strange.
i'm not sure i really understand it.
no, scratch that, i don't understand it at all.
it's confusing and terrifying and exciting and beautiful and freeing and inspiring and really hard and humbling and wonderful, this thing called growing up.
i still can't decide how i feel about it.
i still can't quite believe that i just turned seventeen in february.
but anyway, i've been doing a lot of thinking about who i am as a person. if i could define myself, what would i say? what would i write about, what would i not write about? how would i put me into words?
and so i decided to take the challenge.
this is me.
real, honest, human me.
i like it when it rains. rainy days mean blankets and steaming tea and books and journals and movies.
i like it when it's sunny. sunny days mean shorts and swimming and crazy hair and car rides and warmth.
i like it when it's both sunny and raining. because it's like a scene from a perfect movie.
i'm not very good at making up my mind. and i change my mind often.
i'm a hopeless romantic. seriously hopeless.
i want to travel the world. i just want to go everywhere, to document the world through photography, writing, and just creating.
mint moose tracks ice cream is my favorite edible thing on the entire planet.
i double-knot my shoelaces.
bad grammar is one of my pet peeves.
someday i'm going to publish a fiction book.
my favorite color is blue.
angel food cake is my favorite dessert.
my hair is naturally curly/crazy.
i like to sing at the top of my lungs and dance when there's no one around.
i've always considered myself an extrovert, but lately i've realized i can be introverted too.
sometimes i'm helplessly awkward.
i'm silly, dorky, and i laugh way too much.
i often find it difficult to describe the complexity of my feelings.
i want to ride in a hot air balloon.
horses are my favorite animals.
music is an escape.
so is running.
I love playing the piano, guitar, and ukulele.
when the confusion of life overwhelms me, I have an amazing God.
He fills me with His grace daily, and teaches me what it means to truly live.
i'm always hungry for adventure. i want to explore everywhere.
photography is more than just a hobby to me. it's the way i see life. i am so passionate about it -- the way a camera can snap a memory, capture a moment to last a lifetime. there's nothing else like it.
if you let me, i could talk to you for hours. or just sit in silence. there's something so comforting about a friend's silence, and peace in the knowledge that nothing really needs to be said.
one of my greatest fears is that i might not realize my full potential.
i never want to stop learning. ever.
i am not where i want to be. nor should i be. i never want to become complacent.
i have a weakness for old-fashioned language or terms of endearment.
i'll be your friend always.
bike rides are the best.
i overthink everything way too much.
sometimes i wish i could turn off my brain for a while.
i've been blessed with an amazing, loving, silly, wonderful family.
i would not be who i am today without my parents.
i strive always to stay humble, but fail many times.
i wish i could dance better. but it doesn't stop me from dancing anyway.
when i was little, all i wanted to do was find a way to get to neverland.
trying new foods and creating new experiences are two of my favorite things.
i'm broken and i am flawed, but i have a Savior who says that i am worth loving.
i love looking at the stars. sometimes i'll stand on my driveway and stare at the stars for a long time and realize how small i am and how big the world is and how great my God is.
deep, real friendships make me happy.
i love people in general.
i hope that one day i will look back at seventeen and realize how far i've come.
that will be a good day.
until now, this is who i am. still learning, still making mistakes, still reaching. i am just another teenage girl, but i am so much more. i am a creation so entirely grateful to and amazed by her Creator. and i am striving to abandon my heart fully to Him.
thanks for reading.